||my perfectly IMPERFECT love||

Nobody is born perfect..
If everybody is born perfect..
we'll be longing for someone who is
IMPERFECT..
why...? simple..
because we are human...

why cant when we say I LOVE YOU..
we really mean it..
arent it is suppose to be..
when we committed ourselves to love someone..
we have to accept that someone..
thru their sick and health..
thru their thick and thin..
thru their ups and downs..

why ruin someone else's life
by saying I LOVE YOU..
but i dont love you anymore..
or i dont love you like before...
it hurts too much to hear that..
and it hurts even more to live with it..

i just dont get it when they say..
I LOVE YOU too much that..
i have to let you go..
then..
why bother saying i love you..

or maybe I LOVE YOU so much..
but i've done things that i'm not proud of..
so i cant be with you..

living in a world where we
forgive and forget..
all these I LOVE YOU..buts...
should not come into our life...
we made it happen...
we are the one who done things..
and we are the one who tends to
NOT TO forget it..moreover forgive it..
why sacrifice on things that does not
demands for sacrifice??
it is silly right??

i'm happy with my life..
a husband who is not perfect..
but he makes my day everyday..
two angels who are also not perfect..
but they make me smile just by seeing they smile
a parents who are not perfect..
but the best parents who raised me up
to become who I am today..
a big brother who is not perfect..
but is always behind me when i need a support..
a sister who is not perfect..
but is the shoulder for me to lean on whenever i need one..
a lil brother who is not perfect..
but sometime could lend me a big help when I needed..

who say i need someone perfect..??
i dont demand perfection...
i dont need perfection...
and I dont see why others need to..

you dont have to be perfect
because you wont be one..
live the life you have with those
imperfect people..
because by the end of the day..
you should see that they doesnt have
to be perfect to make your day..

but..bear in mind...
not everything happens..
the way we want it to happen..
dont put high expectations..
especially towards the person you
want to spend your life with..
cause if it turns the other way around..
you'll find it easy to blame that person..
or yourself..
or you'll find yourself failed to be the person
they want you to be..
or you yourself want to be

to those who blurted I LOVE YOU to someone..
if you dont mean it...
dont ever say it..
what goes around..comes around..
say it ONLY when you mean it..

I LOVE YOU AHMAD DARUL ANUAR..
you are my perfectly IMPERFECT love....

Mengapa WANITA sangat Istimewa......

another good stoRy to pass aROund...
and to aLL wOmen..WE ARE SPECIAL...so don't waste it :D


Mama dan Papa sedang menonton TV,
seraya mama berkata. "..i letih la..dah
lewat ni, i nak tido lah...."
Mama pun pegi dapur nak tutup tingkap dapur,
nanti masuk pulak lipas..
.leceh pulak nanti..dah tu, ade pulak rice cooker dalam sink..
rendam lepas makan tadi..basuh jap...
susun pinggan kat rak, lap dapur..
terpercik kena sambal masa masak
tadi...check air panas dalam flusk..
takut habis pulak nanti malam anak nak susu...
memang dah kering pun flusk ni, jerang la air...
sementara tunggu air masak, nampak pulak bekas gula dah kosong....
salin la gula...check bubur untuk anak nak hantar ke taska esok..
nasib baik ade lagi...ishh. ..ni lauk bila ni, semalam...dah beku dah...
basuh la kejap....pegi yard, masukkan baju kotor dalam mesin basuh...
penat dah ni, besok je la basuh...sidai kain lap je lah...
tik...bunyi air dah masak...salin air dalam flusk...ok settle...

baru teringat tak semayang lagi...on da way nak g bilik,
papa tgk tv lagi...nampak pulak beg anak untuk hantar ke taska...
check. ..baju 2 pasang, towel...towel kecik utk selsama...
calamine lotion untuk sapu ruam...pampers 4 keping....
alamak. .telupa pulak masukkan botol...basuh
botol jap...ok settle...

ternampak pulak beg g keje...
emm.. besok nak pakai beg polo coklat lah,
asik2 pakai beg hitam ni je...
salin jap barang2 g beg coklat...
cek sume 6 poket beg, takut la tetinggal apa2..leceh pulak..
selalunya barang yang tertinggal tu la yang nak pakai nanti...
hishhh sempit la beg ni...hangin je...nak kena beli ni beg baru...
rasenya 25 hb ni Sogo sale nih...mana flyers tadi ek...
ha ni die..ok, catit jap kat yellow sticker, nanti lupa..ok settle...

Tetiba dengar suara papa...
"..u buat apa lagi tu..tadi kata nak tido.."...." ..
yelah nak tido la ni..nak smayang jap..."

masuk toilet..buat apa2 yang patut...
cuci muka dulu..2 jenis lak tu...adoi..
gosok gigi...smayang. ..pakai toner...pakai treatment cream...
nak lawa and maintain punya pasal lah ni...
nanti orang kata baru anak satu dah macam anak 4 pulak...huhuhuhu. ..

bukak almari...emmm. ..pakai baju hijau ni lah besok...
gosok kejap..check baju papa, baju papa pun kena gosok jugak ni...
kat bilik belakang...la, napa komputer ni tak tutup ni..
gelas kopi pun ade lagi, dah bersemut dah..ishhh ...
g dapur, basuh, sambung gosok baju...gantung elok2...
kemaskan baju gantung2...masukkan seluar papa yang dah kotor dalam tempat kotor...
ok settle..

dgr suara papa lagi...
"..i dah ngantuk ni.."..
dalam pada nak masuk ke bilik...
owh. ..pokok aku dah nak mati ni ha..
lupa dah 3 hari tak siram...ok, siram jap...
check jap pintu ni...sah tak kunci lagi...grill pun tak tutup..
ni kalau tak check ni, senang2 je mat indon masuk rompak umah aku...
bukak lampu luar..

ni mainan ni sepah2...
masukkan la dalam bakul mainan budak ni...
banyaknya...sampai bawah meja makan pun ade...adoi.. ..
ok dah ...

ok dah boleh baring...adoi sakitnya pinggang...
cium si comel ni kejap...selimutkan die...
la..napa basah ni...emm, tukar la pempers ni...
tak bagus la brand ni, nanti nak tukar lain la...
nanti g Sogo 25 hb ni beli la skali...ok sayang tido k...
kalau boleh jangan la bangun tgh malam ni
eh..tido sampai pagi k...gud nite..sweet dreams...

aaahh...sedapnya dapat baring...mana pulak lotion sapu kurus aku nih...
ha, ni dia...sambil sapu lotion kurus..
setkan alarm...setkan program kerja besok...
pg kul 9.30 ade meeting.. ahh...boring. ..
panas pulak lotion nih..dah la...emm..sedapnya lelapkan mata...

Ya Allah...terima kasih untuk rezekiMU hari ini,. ..
mohon keberkatan dari mu tuhan...

papa pun bangun tutup tv...
"...i dah ngantuk sangat ni...nak tido lah...
citer pun tak best malam ni, bola pun takde..."...
selang seminit...dengar suara papa berkeruh...
dah agak dah....

So?....apa yang peliknya..??

Anda tahu kenapa wanita hidup lebih lama?...
SEBAB ADE BANYAK KERJA NAK KENA BUAT....
tu yang tak boleh nak mati cepat tu...

Tak kira la wanita berkerjaya atau surirumah...

setiap wanita adalah istimewa dengan cara mereka sendiri...

well it's been months since my last update..
i dont know why but i'm having trouble sleeping recently..
i'm tired..really tired..
but i have all my life around me..
oldskool+arman and aiReLL..
i could stay awake just to watch them sleeping..

recent news..
me + oldskool have a shop now..
"oldskOOL akustaiL"..
a dream oldskool had been dreaming
for us to make it happened..
alhamdullillah..it came true..

and we have a new family members..
AHMAD AIRELL AMZAR...
welcome to the world sayang..

i dont quite really have any idea what to
write actually..
but my hands just couldnt stop pressing these keyboards ;p
listening to this Ne-Yo song...
it really reminded me of
our forbidden love..
haha..walking down the memory lane again... ;D

being me..it is easier to express anything by writing...
but in this case..it's typing...

well here goes..my heart felt uneasy..
i have no idea why...
some things happen to us recently..
but we managed to go thru it...
but still..i pray and pray that Allah
will not test us with anything that we couldn't bear
to go thru..

so many thing happened in 2009...
made me realized..time flies so fast...
and i'm wondering...how am i doing??

am i being...
a good mommy to both my angels??
a good wife to my dear hubby??
a good daughter to my dear parents??
a good sister to my dear siblings??
a good friend to my dear friends??

i prayed i did good..
and hopefully it'll last forever...

and to my dear hubby..
another year to add on our married years...
thank you for being you...
for still being you..
thank you for the love
thank you for the laughters
thank you for the feeling
of missing you tho it's just for a few hours...
it shows that i'm falling in love with you
again n again everytime...

and like the lyrics says
you are my love...MY PERFECT DISTRACTIONS



||i Love you aHmad daRul anuaR+ahMad aRman ashRaf+ahMad aiReLL aMzaR||


||Never Knew I Needed||

For the way you changed my plans
For being the perfect distraction
For the way you took the idea that i have
Of everything that i wanted to have
And made me see there was something missing

For the ending of my first begin
And for the rare and unexpected friend
For the way you're something that i never choose
But at the same time something i don't wanna lose
And never wanna be without ever again

You're the best thing i never knew i needed
So when you were here i had no idea
You're the best thing i never knew i needed
So now it's so clear i need you here always

My accidental happily ever after
The way you smile and how you comfort me with your laughter
I must admit you were not a part of my book
But now if you open it up and take a look
You're the beginning and the end of every chapter

You're the best thing i never knew i needed
So when you were here i had no idea
You're the best thing i never knew i needed
So now it's so clear i need you here always

Who'd knew that i'd be here
So unexpectedly
Undeniably happy
Said with you right here, right here next to me
Baby you're the...

You're the best thing i never knew i needed
So when you were here i had no idea
You're the best thing i never knew i needed
So now it's so clear i need you here always
Baby baby
Now it's so clear i need you here always