Wednesday, May 20, 2009

tag + Award ;p

tagged by iKabash =)
thanx fOr the tag+award ;)
here's 10 things about me.

1- i'm 8 weeks pregnant with my 2nd baby
2-am having a teRRible time cOping with these morning sicknesses...
3-i miss my little aRman teRRibly when i'm in the office ;p
4-i'm sleepy but i can't sleep because i feel like vomiting..;(
5-i love Doctor Martins tOO much...
6-i like snapping pictuRes of oldskool n arman...
7-i missed my study years & friends..
8-i'm a list freak...
(every end of the month i'll come out with a list-to-do,list-to-buy...)
9-i'm planning to buy a cOnverse snickers for myself without olskool knowing..hahaha....
10-i do think my mR.oldskool is chOMel..hik..hik...

** 10 taggies
-as i dont have many blog frens..
i'm tagging you guys who have been reading mine...

Sunday, May 10, 2009

:: a stORy wOrth reaDing ::

it's mother's day..(10th May 2009)
and it's my 2nd year celebRating it...
BeiNg a mOther.. ;p

i received an email few days before
which I attached below..

and it tRiggeRed..
how i've been so selfish nowadays..
because I only utter the words
I LOVE YOU ibu..
only when there are occassions..

i'm sorry ibu..

i really love you..

thank you for the greatest upbringing

you've given me

since I was born until now..

there's nothing that I can do

to repay you...

and if i've hurt you..

please forgive me..

cause it was never my intention...

I LOVE YOU..till the end ;p


to the persON whO shaRed this stORy,
thaNk reaLLy tOuched my heaRt ;p


After 21 years of marriage,
my wife wanted me to take
another woman out to dinner and a movie.

She said, 'I love you,but
I know this other woman loves you
and would Love to spendsome time with you.

The other woman that my wife
wanted me to visit was my Mother,
who has been a widow for 19 years,
but the demands of my work and
my three children had made it possible
to visit her only occasionally.

That night I called to invite her
to go out for dinnerand a movie.
'What's wrong,are you well,' she asked?

My mother is the type of woman who suspects
that a late night call or a surprise invitation is a sign of bad news.
'I thought that it would be pleasant to spend some time with you,'
I responded 'just the two of us.

'She thought about it for a moment, and
then said, 'I would like that verymuch'

That Friday after work,
as I drove over to pick her up I was a bit nervous..
When I arrived at her house, I noticed that
she, too,seemed to be nervous about our date.

She waited in the door with her coat on.
She had curled her hair and was wearing
the dress that she had worn to celebrate her
last wedding anniversary.

She smiled from a face that was as radiant as an angel's.
'I told my friends that I was going to go out with my son,
and they were impressed,' she said, as she got into the car.
'They can't wait to hear about our meeting'

We went to a restaurant that, although not elegant,
was very nice and cozy.
My mother took my arm as if she were the First Lady.
After we sat down, I had to read the menu.
Her eyes could only read large print.
Half-way through the entrees,I lifted my eyes and saw
Mother sitting there staring at me.
A nostalgic smile was on her lips.

'It was I who used to have to read the menu
when you weresmall,' she said.
'Then it's time that you relax and
let me return the favor,' I responded.
During the dinner , we had an agreeable
conversation nothing extraordinary but
catching up on recent events of each other's life.
We talked so much that we missed the movie.

As we arrived at her house later, she said,
'I'll go out with you again, but only ifyou let me invite you.'
I agreed.'How was your dinner date?'
asked my wife when I got home.
'Very nice, much more so than I could have imagined,' I answered.

A few days later, my mother died of
a massive heart attack.
It happened so suddenly that
I didn't have a chance to do anything for her.

Sometime later, I received an envelope
with a copy of a restaurant receipt from the same place
Mother and I had dined.

An attached note said:
'I paid this bill in advance.
I wasn't sure that I could be there;
but, nevertheless, I paid for two plates,
one for you and the other for your wife.
You will never know what that night meant for me.

'I love you, son'

At that moment, I understood the importance of saying in time:
'I loveYOU'and to give our loved ones the time that they deserve.
Nothing in life is more important than your family.
Give them the time they deserve,
because these things cannot be put off till some 'other' time.

Somebody said it takes about six weeks
to get back to normal after you've had a baby...
doesn't know that once you're amother,
'normal' is history.

Somebody said you can't love the second child
as much as you love the first...
doesn't have two or more children.

Somebody said the hardest part of
being a mother is labor and delivery....
never watched her 'baby'get on the bus
for the first day of kindergarten...
or on a plane headed for military 'boot camp.

Somebody said a Mother can stop worrying
after her child gets married...
doesn't know that marriage adds
a new son or daughter-in-law to a mother's heartstrings.

Somebody said a mother's job is done
when her last child leaves home...
never had grandchildren..

Somebodysaid your mother knows you love her,
so you don't need to tell her...
isn't a mother.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

:: he..whO meLts my heaRt :D ::

6th of maRch 2009

huBBy maDe a reseRvatiOn at the Ritz caRLtOn KL.
haD my reLaxeD saUna bath and
heaDed to bintaNg waLk fOr jaLan2.. ;D
but we heaDed back to the hOtel
right afteR diNner beCause aRman is aLready sLeeping..
althOugh i was veRy tiRed..
i'm gLad ALLAH gaVe us the
oPportuNity to cheRish Our life tOgetheR...

I was sad tO leaRn huBBy maDe a
sPa reseRvatiOn and lUnch fOr me..
whiCH i did nOt aTteNd to..
becaUse i was in the offiCe..
WORKING...sheeessshhhHhh ;(

7th of maRch 2009

we haD our bReakfast cOmplimEnts fRom the hotel..
aND weNt fOr aNother sauna treatmeNt...
and at aBout 12 we cheCked out frOm the Hotel..
aNd head bacK to aMpaNg.. :(

but the jOuRney did nOt eNd theRe..
we weNt to naD's cRiB..
aNd then we fOund ouRseLves tOgether
with naD, aLong & idLan on the highway
to Morib..hehe....
reaChed theRe at aBout 1830hours..

we weNt stRaight tO the beacH and
sOaKed idLan & aRman..with seLut..hahaha...
sOon after the maghRib azan was recited..
aNd we heaDed to the mOrib mOsque..
perfOrm our pRayers and wenT fOr diNNer..
we checKed in intO a nIce & cheap rOOm
at the viLLa mOrib..RM75 per rOom...
N.E.A.T...and N.I.C.E...

8th MaRch 2009

we staRted packiNg our baGs,
cHecked out from the rOOm aNd weNt for
branch (bReakfast+Lunch)
**well its a vacation..nO need to get up eaRLy :) **
we snaPped sOme pictuRes of us
at the beaCh anD aRound the pLaygROund..
then afteR perfOrming ouR zUhuR..
we heaDed baCk to kLang..
but nad ,aLong aNd iDlan went baCk to PJ insteaD..

9th maRch 2009

ouR episOdes of vaCatioNing dOes nOt eNd
in klang as well.... :)
we went to the sUnway pyRamid
hunting fOr aRman's sHoes..
but we didnt maNage to fiNd oNe..
hahaha...mOmmy aNd DaDDy suRe are
veRy2 paRticuLar n picKy.. :p
haD our diNner aNd head baCk..
which tis time it's fOr reaL..
baCk to AmpaNg...:(

Our hOliday eNded tOday..
but my LOve tOwaRds yOu wiLL nOt...

for planning these..
fOr haVing the time to paMper us...
fOr beinG rOmanTic oNce in bLue mOon..
caUse eveRytime yOu aRe in a rOmantic Mood..
i'm suRe gOnna LOVE everything that yOu maDe and do...
i LOVE you and eveRything aBout yOU...

i LOVE you...i LOVE you...and i LOVE you...
yOu do meLt my heaRt...
oVer n oVer again...

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

::LOVE stORy::

this sOng (LOVE STORY) reaLLy meLts my heaRt..

suddenly it all came back..
how we struggled our way to come to this point...
when they would put up any words
just to see us apart...

you proved to me
i can't achieve anything if i don't struggle hard enough..
and as much as I longed for you to be besides me...
tho we are apart...
I still believe our love is strong enough...
to help us go thru the ups and downs in life...

you helped me..
you believed in me...
you made me see the real me thru you..
you made everything easier for me tho i dont usually admit it... ;p

you are ;
my life
my partner in namesake..
my better soulmate..

if only i could tell those who doesnt believe in love...
it doesnt work out fine everytime...
LOVE is something that we have to cherish..
from both side...
LOVE is something that we have to protect
so that neither one of you
have to be alone and sad....
LOVE is a blessing and
it is too beautiful to be described...
LOVE needed sacrifice just to see
the person that we love have the best in life...

tell the person you love that you LOVE them...
ry second...
because you never know..
when they'll leave us...

i do believe...they'll do the same to you...

AND...back to my LOVE story... ;p

the best part is..
no matter near or far apart..
the love we share together..
always keep me close to your heart...
and keep you close to mine.... :p

love you AHMAD DARUL ANUAR....i always do...

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights
See the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said, marry me Juliet
You'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes

Monday, March 2, 2009


of aLL the days oLdskOoL was away..
tOday reaLLy2 aChed me...
i dOnt knOw..
i tRied tO be stRong..
bUt i'm nOt that stRong..
i tRied to be haPPy..
but i knOw i'm faKing it..

i've been cOunting eNdLess secOnds, miNutes, hOurs..
sO that i cOuLd see hiM in fRont of me..
agaiN I just caNt stOp thiNking of hiM
missiNg him is reaLLy2 achIng me..

theRe is nOt a siNgle secOnd that i fOrget bOut him..

i mIss his smiLe..
i mIss his jOkes..
i mIss his tOuch..
i mIss eveRythIng abOut him..

its tRue what peOPle says..
we dOnt reaLLy cherish
what we aLways have in fRont of us..
but when suDDenLy it is nOt in fRont of us..
then we'LL staRt lOnging fOr that feeLing again..
tHinKing of it...
it oCcuReD tO me..
tRue Love dOes eXist...

may what me & him have right nOw..
wiLL last foRever..

thaNk yOu sayang fOr the Love yOu have fOr me..
thaNk yOU for haVing me in yOUr Life..
tHank yOu foR eveRy singLe tHiNg that yOu do
may it sOmething that i reaLize or nOt..
thaNk yOU fOr maKing me sMiLE eaCh tiMe..
thaNk yOU fOr aLways beiNg the One whO listens
tO my "cRaps of life"
thaNk yOu fOr shaRing the best of liFe ALLAH had cReated fOr us..

it'll be a "lOng eNdLess thAnk yOU" list if
I weRe to wRite it dOwn..
i knOw yOu aRe nOt gOing tO reaD this
unLess i shOw it tO yOu..
whIch i'm nOt gOing tO.. :D
its just sOmethiNg that i feeL like wRiting aBout..

bUt on tOp of eveRythIng..
thanK yOU ALLAH fOr the gReatest destiNy yOu wrOte
fOr me..
fOr us...

i LOVE you AHMAD DARUL ANUAR..always & forever :)

a sOng which reMinded me if... I dOnt have yOu

TANPA-6ixth sense

Resah yang ku ubah dalam kata
Melukiskan kesunyian
Tanpa engkau aku tak mengerti

Tanpa... Cintamu aku resah
Tanpa... Kasihmu aku hampa
Tanpa... Dirimu aku mati

Kini benar-benarku rasakan
Dalam relung hatiku tanpamu
Aku tak mengerti
Takut aku jauh dari dirimu
Dan kau tinggalkan aku sendiri

Tanpamu ku mati
Resah yang ku
Ubah dalam kata
Melukiskan kesunyian
Tanpa engkau aku tak mengerti

Sunday, February 1, 2009

daMaiLah kaU di saNa haFiz..aL-fatiHah...

yesterday, 31st January 2009 my nephew, Hafizudin passed away.
Ibu got a call at about 1600++ hours from
Kak Lin informing us on the news.
We quickly rushed to Gleneagles to pay our last respect to our dear haFiz...

what saDDened me was...
ibu was planning to visit Hafiz on that very day..
earlier that day I mean..
Ibu asked me to buy "yong tau fOo" to bring to the hospital.
I regretted that we didnt reach there earlier...

how I wish i could see him before he go..
i wish he could have play with Arman again..
I wish he could have some of the Yong Tau Foo that I bought for him..
i wish....

When we reach there, we saw abang Fifi was crying besides arwah because
he wasnt there when arwah passed away..
no one was there except Kak Lin...
things must have been hard for Kak Lin rite now..
Hafiz was the only son in the family..
and her four sisters is missing him every seconds they breath..
all of us misses him....all of us...

you guys must be wondering what arwah was suffering from right??
Well please do read this..
this was taken from arwah's closest cousin's blog...
credits to Ika & Ira...thanx dear

this cute boy name muhammad hafizudin bin m. hafifi.
Hafiz, for short. he's sick. really sick.
he does not have left lung, both of his lung on the right. how's that? i dont know.

keadaan hafiz memang kritikal.
jantung hafiz dah tak sihat lagi.
injap jantung dia dah mula bocor.
disebabkan itu, jantung dia terpaksa bekerja kuat untuk mengepam darah.
ibu bagitahu saiz jantung dia dh expand 3times dr normal size dia.
heartbeat anak kecil 7thn ni dalam keadaan rehat
adalah sama dengan orang normal ketika berlari.
bayangkan pula jika anak kecil ini mula bermain dan berlari.
bayangkan heartbeatnya ketika itu.
doktor sudah mengesahkan tiada apa yang dapat dilakukan lagi.
mak ngah dan pak ngah dah nekad tak nak undergo surgery, sebab kalau dilakukan pun,
hafiz akan berada di bawah intensive care.
tak adil untuk kanak-kanak sepertinya untuk terbaring di
atas katil instead bermain bersama-sama kanak-kanak sebayanya.
all we can do now is wait. and pray.

The doctor said it had nothing to do with his heart whatsoever..
it was because HE WAS VERY TIRED...
but to me...
Allah lebih menyayangi die..."KUN FAYAKUN"
its better to think that way...

When I kissed him for the last time...
he looked like he was sleeping peacefully...
and it had been two days since
that I couldnt sleep remembering that he had slept forever...

I was not that close to arwah....
but it came to mind suddenly what if
its Arman...
I couldnt stop thinkng about that..

Would I have the strength of Kak Lin
who went through all the sickness until arwah's last breath..
Would I have the courage of arwah's sisters to
always be besides him until the end..
Would I be ready to let arwah go..
the same way arwahs' family did..

Thinking of it...
i regretted for not being close to arwah..
being a mother now..
proves to me that you'll do whatever you could
to protect the love of your life..
you'll love everyone arounds you even if
that someone hurt you again n again...
you'll pray constantly to Allah
to give you the chances to love them whole heartedly...

in short..being a mother made me realized..
there's no limitation to love...
cherish those you love every seconds you have..
cause you'll never know when
they'll leave you...or
when you'll leave them

that's why i decided to blog this...
to my suprise I dont even have any ideas before this
on what should i put up on my blog...

Ya Allah..berilah keluarga arwah di ketika ini dan
hari2 yg akan datang kekuatan untuk melalui ujian Mu..

berilah mereka ketenangan untuk menerima

Qada' & Qadar ketentuan Mu Ya Allah...

At least we know arwah's sickness and misery had ended...
at least we were given opportunities to cherish
and loved arwah for the rest of his life..
Allah has better plan for him...
he left us all with unforgettable memories...

pergilah sayang...damailah engkau di sana...

smoga roh-nya dicucuri rahmat
dan ditempatkan di kalangan orang2 yg soleh...AMIN